Psalm April 29th
written before 10am
I am restless in the night and wake multiple times.
My alarm goes off early and I thank You for the gift of coffee.
I seek Your face and feel Your peace. I am stirred to know You more.
I run and I am thankful for the morning.
My hip feels tight in the last mile & doubts arise. I wonder when this will end?
At home I go through the motions of getting ready, running late, but staying positive.
I make my coffee and at the last second, the entire thing spills. Coffee & grounds are everywhere.
I feel my husband’s displeasure as he silently negotiates the mess.
I feel like a disappointing child.
I snap back. Peace seems like a memory.
He tries to hide his disapproval.
I don’t try to hide my hurt & indignation.
I flee, running very late for work.
But You are faithful, O Lord, even when I am foolish & a failure.
You lift my head and You are not concerned that I don’t have the answers, because You do.